Repetition does not make the world go round....

I think I am someone who makes the same mistakes in life over and over. I know they are mistakes, but I let it happen again. Why? Lack of confidence, I believe is the issue. I realized as of late one of my mistakes is surrounding myself with people who make me feel very lonely. I learned a long time ago that one does not have to be alone in order to be lonely. I think that is one of the saddest facts out there. I think if I am going to feel so lonely, I should just be alone. It would be easier, would it not? I do like to have time to myself, but when you need someone, and there is a person in the next room, but you can't go to them......it makes life very sad.

Verbal Beatings..................

Isn't it amazing how just a few simple words can destroy someone. I guess it depends on what words and who says them. Someone who has that kind of power of another person should be more considerate of their word choices. Loved ones have that power and they know how to use it. I hate people having that kind of power over me, which is why is it so hard to trust anyone. To be burned by those who are supposed to care most about you, is far more painful than being punched in the face by every stranger you meet. Why do humans find it necessary to hurt each other? Dogs, horses, all other animals don't hurt one another without just cause...survival. Why then do humans, who are supposed to be the superior being, deem it acceptable to attack one another, even those closest to them?

Mistakes being made......

Ok, I take pride in doing a good job at work, but how am I supposed to do a good job if I have NO training??? I have been dropped into a job with an hour of training because my trainer is busy with more important issues. The work still needs to be done.....whether it's done correctly or not. I hate not knowing what I am doing and I especially hate getting it all wrong, which I know is the case. I am flying by the seat of my pants here and it isn't fun!