I Need Out!

This is the picture I have chosen to keep as my desktop at work for the past few weeks. I stare at it and wonder where the track might lead. The thought of just walking toward that moon is overwhelming these days. I need a new route to follow, and being me, I would like it to be "off the beaten path."

Part of my trouble lately, is that I have not adhered to my own remedy for mental stability. I promised myself that I would regularly visit the ocean or the mountains, as they bring me serenity. I have not done so and I am regretting letting go of that outlet. As "crazy" as it sounds, after the psychic I saw told me I needed that release on a weekly basis, I truely believe it helps me. It seems as of late, all I have been doing is working. I work my fulltime job, I work at the stable, I work at making my body more fit, I work at home to keep my animals and my family happy, I work at ensuring my friends know I am there for them. It is again time to remember that it is all about ME. It is time to seal old doorways to past ideas and open new ones. I know some of what I want for my life, but I have not sought these needs/wants out aggressively enough. It is time to get going in my actions, in turn slowing down the whirlwind of thoughts in my mind. Just as I had to force myself to keep balanced at my old job to avoid losing my mind/health with stress, again it is one at a time...one need, one desire, one idea.