Pita Thoughts

The scattered thoughts of a mind trying to remain open is a seemingly closed world.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Not for me to understand

A friend of mine is going through an extremely tragic time in her life. She has suddenly suffered the loss of her best friend and closest companion.....her horse. I have never seen a bond between two beings like I saw between Jess and Eli and now he is gone. I can not bare to imagine how she feels right now, when I even slightly attempt to understand how much pain she must be in, it is sickening. They were one, he was her anchor and now she is alone.

Jess made one of the scariest, yet most brave decisions she could have made a year ago. She left her family, her friends and all she knew to move out to the midwest and start a new life. The one part of her life she had to take along was Eli. There was no way Jess could go without Eli and though she waited a month to ship him out, there was no doubt they would be together again. Jess has been in her new home since June and her enthusiasm was inspiring. Everyone who is close to Jess would say, no matter where she was, as long as she and Eli were together, the rest would fall into place. Because he was a horse, many might not understand how this woman could be so close to him. She found Eli when he was a two year old, she trained him, she loved him, and she made him part of her family. The thought of Jess without her friend is incomprehensible. When I heard about Eli's accident and then his death, my mind quickly jumped to "why?" What is the purpose Jess losing her best friend? Why would such a tragic event occur and at such an unstable time in her life? But this lesson is not for me to learn. She risked so much to make this move, hoping to learn and grow through experience, and now another change. I can not say that Jess' life will be better without Eli, not will it be worse, but it will certainly be different. How much she will change as a person, and how much her current life will be affected will be up to Jess. I wish she did not have to suffer so terribly, but we all go through life changing times. Eli changed Jess when he came to her, she will never be the same. This lesson is beyond my understanding, I can only hope Jess will be able to take Eli's positive influence with her as she goes through the rest of her life. They were meant to be together and he will always be a part of her.

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